I was only being kind
But you mistook me for weak
All for your sake
Became the very thing that I hate
I lost my way
Spinning in an endless figure eight
Pen/05/26
I know itās not symmetrical š¤Ŗ But I kind of love that itās not perfect, because thatās not my thing. I would probably digitally clean it up and make it more symmetrical if it were to be used as a tattoo or something of the sort!
if really Iām the snake they’re all saying
If they look up here, do they see just my black tail swaying?
If I’m all fangs, and all lies, and all poison
If I’m really what they’re saying
I don’t want to disappoint them
charcoal 05/2026
We are big fans of Spring around here šš¼šø
Obviously inspired by the Flaming Lipsā cover art for their album āYoshimi Battles the Pink Robotsā
I read that the song āYoshimi Battles the Pink Robots pt. 1ā was written about fighting cancer, the robots being a metaphor for cancer. Itās a rather interestingly written song, I thought, but I had always imagined it being about how our world was being taken over by technology, and soon will replace humanity as we know it.
It really doesnāt matter what your take on the song is, I think they like to keep it open to interpretation.
Anyway. The point! Ah, yes. My work life has changed dramatically with the widespread acceptance of AI, and Iām not happy about it. Itās a daily upset, honestly. It feels like Iām in a bad 80s horror movie about robots taking over. I have questioned whether if Iām suited for my career field because of this. Maybe itās time to surrender to the bots.
Furthermore, my coworker is currently battling cancer, and itās been a rough going. Originally, she and I didnāt get along, but I think as Iāve began to heal my family wounds, and as she has become more understanding, things are just fine. Being highly sensitive, when people donāt like me, it haunts me. Iām an extreme people pleaser, and itās so hard for me when people arenāt pleased with me. But I realized, I donāt mind if she doesnāt like me, I donāt either! And I know sheās going through some kind of hell, so I let her be, and only try to make her life easier.
So this song randomly came up and I found it quite amusing how some songs can mean one thing to you at a certain time and change completely as you journey on through life. Fascinating, isnāt it?
Those evil-natured robots
They’re programmed to destroy us
She’s gotta be strong to fight them
So she’s takin’ lots of vitamins
‘Cause she knows that
It’d be tragic
If those evil robots win
I know she can beat them
Yoshimi, they don’t believe me
But you won’t let those robots defeat me
Yoshimi, they don’t believe me
But you won’t let those robots eat me, Yoshimi
– the Flaming Lips
Oil pastels/05/26
Shine on the distance between me
And the last thing I see
Let it be me helping
Let it be me, honestly
Let it be me working
On being a better me
pastels/waste of time
I like fish.
Nevermind the coffee spill š
Mixed media/ 042026
Bigger things, bigger dreams, bigger fish
Marker/04/26
Recovery has been going strong!! And Iām beginning to notice the differences in everything since my therapist and I started working through my PTSD. Just happy to be here ā¤ļø
Ethel Cain portrait for an old pal! š
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