if really Iām the snake they’re all saying
If they look up here, do they see just my black tail swaying?
If I’m all fangs, and all lies, and all poison
If I’m really what they’re saying
I don’t want to disappoint them
charcoal 05/2026
the Snake
Southdakota
Peach Crisp, Rain, Sunshine, Gardening and So Much Love š
We are big fans of Spring around here šš¼šø
New Foster!
Yesterday, we welcomed this 3-year-old mini-frenchie into our home as a foster š Her name is Rain, but we like to call her āMarrrry Jane!!!ā She is a pint sized sweetie with a seemingly endless supply of (nervous) energy! Sheās a breeder release, sheās definitely had some pups. I think her hair is really thin right now because of that. And maybe why she looks a little underfed?
She will be getting spayed soon, which I imagine will help with her anxiety a little. She gets along well with everyone, maybe slightly pushy here and there, but thatās a frenchie for ya! Very high energy little dog as of right now, Iām hoping she will be able to learn how to relax and have fun while sheās with us š
Pink Robot
Obviously inspired by the Flaming Lipsā cover art for their album āYoshimi Battles the Pink Robotsā
I read that the song āYoshimi Battles the Pink Robots pt. 1ā was written about fighting cancer, the robots being a metaphor for cancer. Itās a rather interestingly written song, I thought, but I had always imagined it being about how our world was being taken over by technology, and soon will replace humanity as we know it.
It really doesnāt matter what your take on the song is, I think they like to keep it open to interpretation.
Anyway. The point! Ah, yes. My work life has changed dramatically with the widespread acceptance of AI, and Iām not happy about it. Itās a daily upset, honestly. It feels like Iām in a bad 80s horror movie about robots taking over. I have questioned whether if Iām suited for my career field because of this. Maybe itās time to surrender to the bots.
Furthermore, my coworker is currently battling cancer, and itās been a rough going. Originally, she and I didnāt get along, but I think as Iāve began to heal my family wounds, and as she has become more understanding, things are just fine. Being highly sensitive, when people donāt like me, it haunts me. Iām an extreme people pleaser, and itās so hard for me when people arenāt pleased with me. But I realized, I donāt mind if she doesnāt like me, I donāt either! And I know sheās going through some kind of hell, so I let her be, and only try to make her life easier.
So this song randomly came up and I found it quite amusing how some songs can mean one thing to you at a certain time and change completely as you journey on through life. Fascinating, isnāt it?
Those evil-natured robots
They’re programmed to destroy us
She’s gotta be strong to fight them
So she’s takin’ lots of vitamins
‘Cause she knows that
It’d be tragic
If those evil robots win
I know she can beat them
Yoshimi, they don’t believe me
But you won’t let those robots defeat me
Yoshimi, they don’t believe me
But you won’t let those robots eat me, Yoshimi
– the Flaming Lips
Oil pastels/05/26
Sunday smatterings
As I continue to heal, Iāve been noticing a lot of interesting coincidences that arenāt really coincidences at all. Iāve started to notice a subtle shift in my thinking, less chaotic, almost organized patterns of thinking. Things are much clearer lately, and Iāve noticed a deeper connection between all things occurring in time. There is a subtle magic or mystique about everything, as if I were seeing things through a childās eyes again.
Ā Iāve been picking up on the work that my therapist has been doing with me is a sort of Jungian concept. I think the official name of it is trigger tracking. It focuses on conscious dialogue with unconscious “dark” or repressed parts to achieve wholeness and reduce psychological projection. His shadow work is just brilliant. I would consider myself an absolute beginner in all of it, but I think that guy knows a thing or two.
There are these little signs that pop up, almost like messages from the universe, and I think we all have the decision to dismiss them as nothing at all, or observe them with curious wonderment. I have always just kept note of them, never putting too much weight into them, but also not disregarding them completely. Theyāve been appearing a lot more frequently lately, making these very clear signs that I need to put effort into and pay attention to what theyāre trying to communicate.Ā
In any case, it seems I am on the ārightā path. Itās only human to question this from time to time, I suppose. And of course, thereās the acknowledgement that what may be the ārightā path now, may seem āwrongā at some point in time. And thatās just part of the bigger path that we cannot see. Perhaps? š¤
Anyway, to put it simply, Iām really happy ā¤ļø in a holistic way. Have a nice day!
Millie the spy š
A fish, again
I like fish.
Nevermind the coffee spill š
Mixed media/ 042026
Bigger things, bigger dreams, bigger fish
Marker/04/26
April š¼
Recovery has been going strong!! And Iām beginning to notice the differences in everything since my therapist and I started working through my PTSD. Just happy to be here ā¤ļø
CCN 