Little Green Apples

Out from under the apple tree,
Came a voice that said, “Hey! You’re just like me!”

My eyes darted towards its origin,
Just a little green apple, already slightly eaten.

So, I stared, and stared and stared some more,
I shot back “No way! You’re a perfect apple, and I’m just a bore.”

The voice spoke again, “But the truth is more than what we see!”
And somewhere deep inside, I knew that already.

I pondered the green apples again,
And considered seeing me as I saw them.

Every one of them was a miraculous gift to be adored!
Could it be we are the same at our core?

In my last post, I mentioned my obsessive tendencies, and green apples have definitely been a weird thing in my life. At one point in time, they were all I allowed myself to eat. I would just buy a bag, and that’d be it for the week.

Around 10-ish? years ago, when I bought my home, the determining factor was the backyard with the most beautiful green apple tree I had ever seen. I know I’m a bit odd, but I feel very connected to my apple tree. It has given me so much.

I sometimes wonder if it tracks back to my happier childhood memories. The happiest moments of my young life were when my big sister and I would put on music and sing and dance and be completely ridiculous. I specifically remember The Beatles’ album with the green apple. It was my favorite, and the image was so stark and simple. I loved it. I still do.

Apologies for my rambling.
This is in oil pastel, pretty obviously inspired by my current fave artist dude, René Magritte. It’s a little sloppy but that’s me! I wrote the poem first, and needed an image to go along 💚

Pink Robot

Obviously inspired by the Flaming Lips’ cover art for their album “Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robots”
I read that the song “Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robots pt. 1” was written about fighting cancer, the robots being a metaphor for cancer. It’s a rather interestingly written song, I thought, but I had always imagined it being about how our world was being taken over by technology, and soon will replace humanity as we know it.
It really doesn’t matter what your take on the song is, I think they like to keep it open to interpretation.
Anyway. The point! Ah, yes. My work life has changed dramatically with the widespread acceptance of AI, and I’m not happy about it. It’s a daily upset, honestly. It feels like I’m in a bad 80s horror movie about robots taking over. I have questioned whether if I’m suited for my career field because of this. Maybe it’s time to surrender to the bots.
Furthermore, my coworker is currently battling cancer, and it’s been a rough going. Originally, she and I didn’t get along, but I think as I’ve began to heal my family wounds, and as she has become more understanding, things are just fine. Being highly sensitive, when people don’t like me, it haunts me. I’m an extreme people pleaser, and it’s so hard for me when people aren’t pleased with me. But I realized, I don’t mind if she doesn’t like me, I don’t either! And I know she’s going through some kind of hell, so I let her be, and only try to make her life easier.
So this song randomly came up and I found it quite amusing how some songs can mean one thing to you at a certain time and change completely as you journey on through life. Fascinating, isn’t it?

Those evil-natured robots
They’re programmed to destroy us
She’s gotta be strong to fight them
So she’s takin’ lots of vitamins

‘Cause she knows that
It’d be tragic
If those evil robots win
I know she can beat them

Yoshimi, they don’t believe me
But you won’t let those robots defeat me
Yoshimi, they don’t believe me
But you won’t let those robots eat me, Yoshimi
– the Flaming Lips

Oil pastels/05/26